What could be.

So, as you can tell it has been quite a while since I have posted a blog. My sincerest apologies. Sometimes I forget about my blog, just like it's been a while since I've done an actual vlog as well. I am here now, so that is all that really matters.

Summer has gone by so fast, it seems yesterday classes ended and summer just started. Of course, for me, I took a summer class which in turn made summer go by really fast. I haven't done much of anything this summer but work. At the beginning of the summer I read Hunted and Tempted by PC and Kristen Cast, the latest books in the House of Night Series. I also recently finished reading Bran Hambric: The Farfield Curse by Kaleb Nation which I highly recommend.

I have also gone to the movies several times this summer, I went to the Midnight Release of Eclipse, and it was extremely amazing. It was better than the first two Twilight films combined. Other movies I have seen include but are not limited to: Inception, Ramona and Beezus, Iron Man 2, Letters to Juliet, Prince of Persia, and The Last Airbender. I recommend all of them they were really good.

On another note, I have a new roommate because my old one moved out because she graduated. Me on the other hand, am due to graduate this December after being in school for so long.

The most awesome thing I have done other than the Midnight Eclipse Release, ROFLCOPTOUR came to Manhattan, Kansas along with The Next Great Adven-Tour, making an epic Midwest Nerdfest concert. Concert performances may be found at my youtube channel: http://www.youtube.com/user/alirae03

I also started playing Word of Warcraft as well. I'm currently level 21, I believe. More on that later.

I will try to do more blogging in the future, however, I must be off.

"The Lovely Bones"movie and thinking outside the box

Tonight a friend and I went to see the movie, "The Lovely Bones," in which I highly recommend. As there may be spoilers to follow, I would recommend not continuing to read on unless you've either seen it or don't mind spoilers. After watching the movie, I realize just how much you really can't know one person. You might think that you can trust everyone, and they seem harmless, but how are we really to know, unless we've actually known them for a long time, the true them, not what they want us to think of them as. In the movie, this neighbor murders Susie (rape is also insinuated) because by half-way through the movie you find that Susie isn't the only girl he's done this too. He did it to his landlord, 14 year olds, 13 year olds and a 6 year old, and everyone just thinks he's this harmless neighbor because no one suspects him. It makes you realize that these kind of people are everywhere, in fact there could be some living just next door to you that does these things and you just don't know it. So it makes me question just how trusting we can be, especially at a young and vulnerable age as Susie was.

As children we are taught don't talk to strangers, but sometimes the worse threat is those you know. In my Social Problems class, we discussed an article about Halloween Sadism in which a long time ago people were afraid that their children's candy was being poisoned when they went out tricker-treating, especially when two deaths were reported, but what most of those reports left out was that those deaths were the cause of family members, but we still don't want our kids talking to strangers. It seems these days that it's hard to trust anyone. I know, it's just a movie, and yes, it's based off a book, however, these kinds of things still happen, and there's no stopping it, because there are sickos out there. I'll never be able to understand how someone can do something like this especially to kids. I suppose, this is an pessimistic look, but we should really be aware of our surroundings, which include people you know. If we can't trust our family and close friends, then who can we trust?

PS On a different note, you should go check out "Dear John" it's one of the most amazing movies I've seen in a long time.

To learn in class, or not to learn, that is the question...

As I sit in class actually wanting to learn something, I realize, I'm not actually learning anything, and what I do learn, is stuff I learned in grade school. Keep in mind, I'm 25 and grade school was a long time ago for me. I have two classes that this is the case for. One of these classes, however, is called 'Earth Through Time,' in which all of the notes that we've done so far. I had with the same teacher two summers ago in a class called 'Earth in Action.' Sometimes, I wonder if teachers, at least college teachers, even try any more? Seriously, what's the point in going to a class where you're learning the same stuff you learned two years ago with the same teacher, but a different class? Or learning stuff that you learned in the fifth grade? Not only is it a waste of my time, but it's a waste of my money to pay for a class, that I know most of the information for already. Furthermore, both of these classes, the only grades that count as part of you grade are the exams. However, although these classes seem quite pointless, some people just aren't good test-takers, like me. So basing your grades only on tests is unfair to those people, unless the test is easy that a first grader could do it, but still it's not an accurate calculation on how well you know the material without homework to show more of your understanding of the material being presented.

My other class, 'Geology of the US,' I have actually learned more from going through my textbook than I actually learn in lecture. This class is so pointless, that on a typical day 30-40 people out of 120 actually show up to lecture. Most of us, are either do the Soduku in our college paper or on facebook, etc. not actually paying attention. Furthermore, he doesn't even follow the syllabus either. Our test this coming week is over chapters 1-3 and only chapter 2 in on the syllabus for next week's test, and 95% of the stuff that's in these chapters we have yet to cover in class, and classes started almost a month ago. So, I'm dreading the upcoming test. On that note, I'm going to start going through my text book and pulling out important info, along with my other classes to get on top of things.

DFTBA!

Turning Back Time

Sometimes I wish I could turn back time and start my life over to redo all the mistakes I've made through time. Even go as far as hitting a refresh button, or saving my life to redo a mistake and keep redoing it in order to get it right, much like the song "Saved" by ALL CAPS. But we don't have a working Time Turner and life isn't a video game to pause, rewind, or start over. Life is full of mistakes and regrets you can't take back or redo. You have to learn to accept them in order to move on with your life. Hopefully, you'll be able to learn from those mistakes and regrets in order to not repeat them and be able to start anew and move forward in life without dwelling on things you can't change.

Of course, you have those select few people that will judge you for those mistakes no mater how big or small and hold it against you for what seems like eternity. However, we all make mistakes and have regrets, it's a part of life. Your friends need to be able to accept those mistakes as you have, and move on as well. If they're willing to hold mistakes you've made in your past against you, perhaps, they're really not true friends. This also goes for boyfriends/girlfriends. If that guy you like is going to hold a mistake/regret you made in your past against you as well, something you can't change, perhaps they aren't the one for you. Even though it may hurt for awhile, you must move on to someone who will accept those mistakes, regrets, and accept you for who you are instead of trying to change you and make you feel horrible for those mistakes you've made and have already overcome, but instead continually bring you down for those mistakes. Acceptance of those mistakes is a major priority, if you can accept your past mistakes and regrets, then other people will too.

(A blog with food for thought. :) )

Oh, what have I been doing? :)

Classes have started up this week, and has been kind of intriguing. But I bet you're all wondering what I was up to before classes started. Well, Christmas Break was fairly boring, I was here mostly and spent most of it watching various television shows online, which I mentioned in my previous blog. The week following that all I did was work, and watch some of those shows again. Once my roommate returned we watched all of "Glee" together and "The Vampire Diaries" and then as a late birthday present she bought me "Glee" Season 1 Volume 1, exciting.

Since then this past Thursday classes started, which I thought was fairly stupid, because we go to class for 2 days followed by a 3-day-weekend. Anyways, some of my classes seem like they'll be fairly interesting and I'm looking forward to a great semester. Owl City will be performing on Campus on Wednesday, however, my friend didn't by me a ticket so I can't go, and I have to work, I'm not a happy camper. On the bright side, 3 months from tomorrow I get to go to The Hallows and Horcruxes Ball 3 which will be held on Campus again this year!!! EXCITED already!! :) Bands include: Ministry of Magic, The Remus Lupins, The Parselmouths, The Moaning Myrtles, Gred and Forge, The Whomping Willows, and Justin Finch-Fletchly and the Sugar Quills. DATE: April 17th , 2010. More info will be provided in the future here and on my youtube channel.

Well, as much as I would like to continue rambling, I must say adieu and do my homework.

The New Year

It is currently just after midnight on New Year's Eve, and instead of going to bed, I've decided to blog instead. I'm trying to blog more often to keep my creative juices going, but to no avail. Lately my time has been taken up by catching up on television shows I've missed, due to the lack of having cable. Currently, I'm ubber obsessed with "Glee" and the teacher Mr. Scheuster played by Matthew Morrison, whom before this show, I had never heard of, therefore, I IMDB'ed him, and watched some movies he's been in such as, 'Once Upon a Mattress,' kind of interesting but the acting (not all, but most) was horribly corny and cheesy and hard to believe the characters, and watched 'Dan in Real Life' which he had a minor role in. He was the cop that kept pulling over Dan, he was just great. Then I youtube'd him, and found some clips of some of his broadway performances such as Hairspray as the original broadway Link Larkin, as much as I like Zac Efron, Matthew was way better.

I've also been catching up on "True Blood" an HBO show that's incredible. That's all I'll say, because I don't want to spoil it for you. Then, tonight I caught the latest episode of "Eastwick" in which they are playing the remainder episodes, and canceling it. It's an amazing show based off the book, which I had no idea it was a book, but also the basis of the 1980's (I believe) of "The Witches of Eastwick" which starred Jack Nickelson.

What I really should be doing with my current free time, is uploading all the remaining concert footage that I have from last years Hallows and Horcruxes Ball II, before the one coming up in April. I am also hoping beyond hope, that I can get off work on January 20th, because the band Owl City with their hit song "Fireflies" is coming to campus for a concert and apparently it's selling out and I don't want to buy a ticket and not be able to go, but then if I can get off, then I won't have a ticket to go. So, it's a pickle of a dilemma.

I am also, now 25, ugh. My first thought was "I'm half-way to 50." But that's looking at getting older in a negative light, yes I wish I didn't have to grow old, but who doesn't? I mean, I like who I am and I have fun with being who I am, and don't care if people judge me, well, I care but not in the sense that I would change myself to please others. I have my morals even if people don't agree with them or see eye to eye on the same topics. I do get made fun of occasionally for watching and actually liking High School Musical, but what's wrong with that? Musicals are fun and entertaining, and besides it's rated G which means it's for everyone. Now I would understand if it was rated Y for young audiences like some shows are on television, but G means everyone, well technically it means general, but it's the same thing. So me getting older should be a negative thing, it should be full of joy, so I can share my joy of the life I have, no matter how much things I have or don't have, with others and still be able to act like a kid once in a while. Everyone has that inner-child they just need to release once in a while and there's no harm in that.

Well, I have actually written more than I have intended to, but nevertheless, I feel slightly better and I'm not sure who actually reads these, but if anyone gets use out of them, then I guess I've done my job as a writer. I really should be going to bed now, and perhaps another one of these will come tomorrow. Good night all.

Merry Christmas All!

I would like to take this opportunity to say Merry Christmas/Happy Holidays to all. It has been a while since my last blog, that I thought I'd take the liberty to write one now. :) It is currently Christmas Break and Christmas is in just in a couple days, but my break hasn't been going too well. I mean break is great, no classes, etc, but there's plenty to worry about.

My GPA went down a little and after the episode over the summer I can't afford my GPA to get lower (please don't ask). Plus, today I get a text from my mom that a girl I graduated high school with in 2003, has passed away last night, and there's no one here for me to talk to about it, since everyone has gone home for break. So, I continually have music, movies, hulu.com on, etc. to keep me from having quiet time to think. I hate that things just keep happening like this. Four years ago the same thing happened, but obviously to someone else from my high school graduating class and I was in denial and for some reason hysterical, even though, the guy and I never got along in high school, but loosing a peer and someone you know is extremely hard, especially when their the same age as you. So, if I know when the funeral is I'm going to try to go, hopefully, it's not Monday, but if it is that's okay too. My only objection to Monday is, is the fact it's my birthday and I would hate to go to a funeral on my birthday.

Sorry if this blog is a bit depressing/boring, but I had to write something since I have no one to talk to about it until everyone comes back in January or when/if I go home on Christmas. We're suppose to have 8 inches of snow by Friday, Christmas but I can't go home if there's that much snow or county people suck at trying to keep roads clear. We had nine inches of snow a couple weeks ago, and they didn't shovel my street for 2 days after it quit snowing, I'm not holding high standards for this time either.

Have a joyous Holiday and hope you're breaks are/is going better than mine.